Most people think that they are confused by the cards
and remembering their meanings might not be enough to read the read.
I too have had the hesitation of saying the wrong things,
even though I was just astounded by the cards, couldn’t help watching all the readings on YouTube.
I started doing readings for myself and people that are close to me.
My friends appreciated my interpretations but I guess I didn’t.
I always wanted to stick with the given meanings,
even though the exciting part was to see whole different
patterns in every different reading and discovering the cards anew.
I held myself back from the enjoyment of discovery.
I didn’t understand readings I’ve done for myself nor
the ones I’ve done for others. I couldn’t relate certain cards at key positions to the whole picture.
This has all resolved when my cousin did a reading for me.
He and his twin had always been into Tarot, even before I was.
But they didn’t read a book about it or didn’t delve into cards’ meanings.
They’ve always been braver than I am, and they trusted their
intuition more than I trust mine. I mostly depend on what I read.
So I introduced the Celtic Cross to one of them
and he did a reading for me, which flew so smoothly.
He connected the dots nonchalantly, he didn’t need much clarification.
Only learning which position stood for what meaning, he simply interpreted what he saw.
He was doing as good as YouTubers I followed, maybe even better,
since this was my personal reading.
Here’s my Celtic Cross:
Self: King of Cups: This was the first card he opened.
He found this man to be very isolated, even before seeing the other cards.
“This fellow is surrounded by waters, but this is his own doing, since I don’t see any soil under his feet.
He must have created this scene for himself. Look, he doesn’t even hang out with the fish,
he doesn’t care that there’s a ship. You must be enjoying your isolation.”
I moved in alone, I didn’t want to see any of my friends and I was enjoying my isolation.
It was true. Even though he knows almost everything about me
I didn’t tell him or anyone in my family about this.
I wanted some time alone but I didn’t want them to worry about me.
Crossing: Four of Swords: This was almost like an approval to the self card.
But contrary to general interpretation of the card,
he found this character to be under outside forces. “Is it a coffin he’s sleeping on?
Yo he’s wrecked. You have a slight escape I assume and this sword is showing you the way.”
And then we opened the Base card, the way that the sword pointed.
Basis: Eight of Cups: “What he’s leaving behind is a muddy swamp you see?” But it was in reverse.
“Are you stuck in the mud?”
I was struggling with severe Stockholm syndrome.
It was almost the first time I missed the past.
I didn’t think considering what’s best for me couldn’t involve past.
Maybe I had to surrender and take a few step back in order to be happy. The card said otherwise.
Near Past: Eight of Swords: “Again, the prison. I’m sure you haven’t done this to yourself
but I don’t see anyone around her.”
It was true. It was probably my mind. I was tired of trying and just gave up,
thinking that some things I desired wouldn’t work.
Possible Outcome: Page of Cups: “Look you’ve caught the fish!” He addressed the fish behind King of Cups.
“But did you use force? Now this is you, trapping someone into a prison.”
I was surprised that he interpreted it in this way.
But it all might have come true, my lone times were taking too long even though I enjoyed it.
I might have ended up drowning someone else with me, since the end was obviously more loneliness.
I accepted the interpretation and took it as a warning. Even though they were the only sympathetic cards in the reading 😀
Near Future: Seven of Swords in Reverse: “You’ve taken what you could,
walking away carefully. But see, looking back again!”
Self: Eight of Swords in Reverse: “Looking back again!” Now it was all obvious.
Nostalgia, or hoping that things would be the way that they used to be was holding me damn back.
“What did you give those people and they’ve thrown it back at you? You’re actually surprised
that they don’t care what you can provide for them.”
I know. I was so proud of my work and I wasn’t appreciated.
I was the one cheering everyone up but everyone responded back negatively.
I thought I didn’t care about this a lot but there it was, my cousin was telling it to me looking at this card.
And it had totally nothing to do with it’s conventional meaning.
I often had this card in my readings at that period but I didn’t get what it meant for me.
There wasn’t any fight going on between me and anyone.
Environment: Ten of Swords:
“Look what they would have done to you, if they’ve accepted the things you gave them.”
“Same situations, same words, same swords I guess. Look at the patters,”
he showed me the past card, Eight of Swords.
The shape, the pattern the swords formed was all so similar.
“If they can’t imprison you, they will try to kill you.
I’d rather see you take the swords and run away, but without looking back.”
Hopes and Fears: Queen of Cups in Reverse: “Now you have your feet on the land.
This is both your expectation and your fear.
I think you know what you’re capable of and you’re afraid of it.
See, King, the Page and Queen of Cups. They are all different stages of the same element.”
Result: Ten of Wands: “These sticks look like they’re gonna hit you hard.”
Well of course they did. Nothing in my reading seemed to be going Ok.